Love is so Ephemeral

Love is so ephemeral and forgetting takes so long
It’s not like you were not around, you hardly cared
Not like we rarely talked, you barely listened
Not even that the spark had gone, the love went out of your eyes
Don’t know which was harder, you were there but yet so far

I could feel your hand holding mine;
And yet our hearts felt so far apart.
I could feel the lingering touch;
But your coldness chilled my heart.
I could see you smile;
But your impatience stilled my joy.
I reached out to you at night
But your indifference cut me a thousand times over

Couldn’t take the pain no more
Couldn’t be your life’s very high second priority no more
So I set you free my love, & though in my heart I knew it was over
I had hoped that you would come back to me

Time has passed by, and I still remember every touch, every sigh
But now I can no longer be content with the memories
They mock at me, pricking my heart
Love is so ephemeral and forgetting takes so long...

Smothered by the intensity, dazed by the pain
Embittered by the twist of fate, scarred by the betrayal
I trudge along nursing my bruised heart
For you did not even spare my pride
I gave you my world but you shattered my dreams

I laugh back at the naïve girl who
In the foolishness of hope, believed you really loved her
Now time has passed and though people may come and go
I know better than to trust life again
The walls I’ve built around myself are high
With a promise – no one shall ever be able to hurt me again

And yet in the wee hours of the morn
As I lie awake and will for sleep to come
I think of you and what could have been
And the tears that come unbidden
Unleash the tide of ache and loss
Love is so ephemeral and forgetting takes so long...